Confessions 1

I woke this morning, tired and drained. Feeling like my brain just needs to sleep some more. I don't have much to complain about as I really have everything I need to survive day to day, but its the day to day that gets exhausting. Waking up, then waking the kids for school, getting them to the bus stop, then cleaning the house, watching the kids tear it up again as they come through the door at 3:30,cleaning it again, listening to them bicker and fight all day and try to make each other look bad to me. It really just makes me angry a lot. Then making dinner, listening to how what ever i make isn't what they like or want. Then its shower time aka fight time for the kids, whose gonna shower first, who showered first the night before when it really doesn't matter, they both end up washed anyways lol, and then bed time.

I am far from perfect, I spend to much time in front of this computer when I should be reading scriptures. I yell to much when my kids bicker instead of being understanding and patient. Don't get me wrong, I try very hard be patient and understanding. After hours and hours of hearing it though its all I can do to not scream and throw a fit myself lol.

So I sort of walk around in a zombie state of doing what it is that has to be done for them to grow up and to make it day to day. I have decided that this is not acceptable. I now am attempting to grow herbs and vegetables, which I love to do. I have thrown myself into my services at our church, another thing I love to do. In hopes that it makes my spirit more healthy and happy. If I can fix this then perhaps patience and understanding will follow.

Epic Racist Moment on Game Show

 Watch Video first as this subject is a response to this video:

http://youtu.be/Pqs8xBFNMQ0

Wow, is all i have to say. I am not racist, but i do have an opinion. 1st, I think he is entitled to feel how he wants based on his experience, but i think its wrong to judge an entire race based on his experience. 2nd, I think it’s sad that this is the only experience he has had, he should go to church. Third, many many people i speak with who are not racist do feel like African Americans have attitudes like we (meaning anyone but African American people) owe them something or that they deserve more than we do because of what their ancestor went through. 

I feel, it is a crutch for African Americans to be able to  jump ahead in life without working for it. That being said....I am NOT saying there are not African Americans who do not work hard for what they have, i KNOW there are. But as stated, everyone has opinions, how can more than 50% of the country feel the same way without there being some truth to it. There are even famous African American men who have stood up and said that African American people need to stop acting this way.

I cannot be held responsible for something my ancestors did, so why am i hated by African Americans for something i didn't do or have a part of? Why should I pay for their education based on their skin color or because of something I had no part of. In fact, my family fought for their rights and freedom, but I am still hated because I am white and for something someone did that i have never even met. People stop and think about this and if it makes since or not?? *I am still hated because I am white and for something someone did that i have never even met. * I think both sides are stupid honestly. lol We are human, we are meant to love, not hate. So stop letting the devil run our lives with hate.

To get respect.....you have to give respect. To be respected....act respectable. No matter what race you are and no matter what country you are in. That’s the plain and simple truth.